About two weeks ago, we received news that the son of Bikram’s guru passed away. We found out after the Monday morning yoga class when Craig announced the news, and due to his death, Bikram requested that we have the rest of the day off to honor his friend. Bikram was away when we all received the news, but arrived here in Acapulco two days later. He told us that he was so happy to be back with us and to have our support. Bikram had lost his childhood friend, and I believe he was only in his early 60’s when he died, so I imagine it was a tremendous loss for Bikram and his family.
When Bikram returned to training, his lectures really began. In addition to posture clinic, I had heard from many of my teachers that Bikram’s lectures are what take up a tremendous amount of time at training. They weren’t lying. When Bikram is here, we continue to have posture clinic in the afternoon between lunch and the 5:00 p.m. yoga class, but at 9:00 p.m. we report to the lecture hall and never quite know what time we will be let out. The week of Bikram’s return he combined lecturing with old Bengali movies; he lectured until about midnight and after a short break started the movies. The latest we stayed in the lecture hall was until about 4:15 a.m. – last Friday night. The other two nights he kept us well past 2:00 a.m. By the time Friday night rolled around most of us trainees figured that brining a pillow was a smart idea, and as soon as the lights went down most of us started snoozing.
During and a few days after the “4 A.M. Lecture” (as I am calling it) I was beyond mad. The staff continues to tell us to “trust the process,” and I felt extremely fed up with whatever this process entailed. As the week went by and after bitching and moaning to my fellow trainees, we all seemed to come to the conclusion that everything in this “process” of Teacher Training is to push us to our limits – physically, mentally, emotionally – maybe even spiritually. If the classes aren’t breaking us down physically, maybe these lectures will test us mentally and emotionally; I know they did for me. By trusting the process, we have to accept that we have no control over what’s happening to us and simply ride the wave – the ups, downs, and plateaus – of Teacher Training. The way I feel is that the sooner we let go of that control, the sooner we are able to enjoy or at least willingly accept what we are experiencing. This is not to say, however, that I am looking forward to the late night/early morning lectures that are most likely going to take place this week when Bikram returns from India after the funeral, I think I simply am more accepting of them.